This goes out to you...
You...
And you...
To all the ladies I have met through life
That never looked twice
This one's for you...
see...
You're pretty outside and you're probably pretty inside
waved and say hi as you walk by
But you just walk by...
Sure you get hit on by many guys
That shouldn't mean you can't be polite
I'm just saying...hi
Okay...fuck it, I'm not your type
Say I'm too gangster, Hollister just doesn't fit right
So I rock a hoodie, fitted on and a pair of nikes(say as nik)
But I'm not gangster enough, not dealing or roaming the nights
Got a diploma, 9 to 5'er and rather fly kites...
See...
they just see me as some guy
Some guy they walk by
Never took the time, that I just might be that guy...
But that's alright...
cause when their guy comes to them smelling of another
Lipstick on their collar
Looking like they can be their brother!
Think of me...
When some guy decide to grab you instead of just saying hi
Looks under skirts to flirt...and you know it hurts inside
At the clubs getting touched where the sun doesn't shine!
Think of me...
When your "on and off" boyfriend beats and cheats on and off
Like he walks with cleats on your heart...on and off
While you're jammin' to..."love the way you lie" song
Think of me...
When bible studies become sex education, sundays become a date game
At church in a flirt with demons flying high and falls like rain
Dripped over your soul and erase your name
Cause all you're there for is to play love games
Break chains and lose the only real connection that suppose to be gain
It's the same...say I'm insane, so what ya doing at them bedroom church games?
On your knees...head down in a....
Love prayer?
...Think of me
I see so many lovely ladies that want no part of me
Say I'm too fat so there's too much of me
Talk a little too fast, so-so-so I studder but write with ease
You see...
This is me...
First glance, might be too thug
Second chance, might be too rugged
But would you ever imagine these words out of me?
That I could possess this much power inside of me...
That with one word I can unleash so much heat...
With a stroke of a brush I can bring grown men to their knees...
That I can even write poetry!
But you can't...
And you don't...
To you I'm just another guy
Just another one that walks by
So to all the ladies who ever wonder why...
Cause ya' never bother to look twice
Say we're too nice...
Nice guys finish last, right?
So...I walk by
And fuck a hi...
Goodbye!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
My Sappy Poem (MSP)
Yup, I wrote a sappy poem...never thought I write one, but here you go
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Ahem...
Okay...
It's like you see right through me
Pass the words, the mind, right to the soul
Didn't think it could happen
Caught myself thinking of you
Like every love song reminded me of you
...like each one was written for you
And all I wanted to do is dedicate each one to you!
See...I find myself thinking of the right words to say
But all that comes out is "do you like me" letters with yes/no boxes unchecked
Always double checking your texts
Waiting for your next
Oh...and fuck your Ex
Cause he was no good, so on to the next!
I'm trying to be that, but all of this is brand new
You could tell by the first time I looked at you
Like a little boy, sweaty palms, just wanna hold your hands
I wanna hold your hands...
Squeeze it tight and tell you everything will be alright
And take flight...fly away from it all
Take you to a place where it's just us
where we can converse like it was our first
Share a blanket and protect you from the hurt
Hold you and sing songs off key
And have u look at me like "this boy can't sing"
But if each word I spoke could make you smile, I'll never stop
And each tear you drop I'll be there to blow them dry
Cause I'll never wanna see you cry
I know you're use to lies
But in me, I'll hope you'll try...that these lines were made for you
If you want proof, I'll climb on the highest roof and scream how much I think of you!
It's like when I see you, I see truth
And suddenly I have faith in people
You told me your history, but that's history
I know our story didn't start off happily, but our story could make HISTORY!
Cause if you got me, I got you
And in you I have in faith
Because without you I'll still be that douche-bag
That dude in rage
it's like you release me from that cage
And together we can start a new chapter, new page...
Now hold my hands...
Cause I just wanna hold yours
And we can walk together...
Yeah...just walk together
Talk about how crappy your day was
And poke fun at the little things
Like how you capitalize each letter in every word
How your voice bright up my days
How your rough nights saddens me in every way
And I be there to tell you everything will be okay
Cause everything will be okay...
Believe in me and I'll believe in you...
And together we can be great....
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Ahem...
Okay...
It's like you see right through me
Pass the words, the mind, right to the soul
Didn't think it could happen
Caught myself thinking of you
Like every love song reminded me of you
...like each one was written for you
And all I wanted to do is dedicate each one to you!
See...I find myself thinking of the right words to say
But all that comes out is "do you like me" letters with yes/no boxes unchecked
Always double checking your texts
Waiting for your next
Oh...and fuck your Ex
Cause he was no good, so on to the next!
I'm trying to be that, but all of this is brand new
You could tell by the first time I looked at you
Like a little boy, sweaty palms, just wanna hold your hands
I wanna hold your hands...
Squeeze it tight and tell you everything will be alright
And take flight...fly away from it all
Take you to a place where it's just us
where we can converse like it was our first
Share a blanket and protect you from the hurt
Hold you and sing songs off key
And have u look at me like "this boy can't sing"
But if each word I spoke could make you smile, I'll never stop
And each tear you drop I'll be there to blow them dry
Cause I'll never wanna see you cry
I know you're use to lies
But in me, I'll hope you'll try...that these lines were made for you
If you want proof, I'll climb on the highest roof and scream how much I think of you!
It's like when I see you, I see truth
And suddenly I have faith in people
You told me your history, but that's history
I know our story didn't start off happily, but our story could make HISTORY!
Cause if you got me, I got you
And in you I have in faith
Because without you I'll still be that douche-bag
That dude in rage
it's like you release me from that cage
And together we can start a new chapter, new page...
Now hold my hands...
Cause I just wanna hold yours
And we can walk together...
Yeah...just walk together
Talk about how crappy your day was
And poke fun at the little things
Like how you capitalize each letter in every word
How your voice bright up my days
How your rough nights saddens me in every way
And I be there to tell you everything will be okay
Cause everything will be okay...
Believe in me and I'll believe in you...
And together we can be great....
Monday, October 18, 2010
Throwback Poem "WWJD"
This is an old poem I wrote back in 2004 about the phrase "WWJD" when everyone use to rock that bracelet, so i thought i write something about it....i always wanted to write a second part to it and maybe will in the future.
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…what would Jesus do?
…if he had a gun pointed to his head and asked if he wanted to live
…if drug dealing was the only occupation he knew and had nothing to give
…laying on the ground dying bleeding to death
…whom will he pray to forgive
…crying from the pain of his father beating his ribs…collapse within
…what would Jesus do?
…if he had sinned, would he go confess himself fully to a priest in a confession booth
…getting popped, stopped dead at his tracks…shakin’ his tooth loose
…getting’ bullied at school cause he aint cool…bleeding…people laughin’…being amused
…accused of a crime he didn’t commit, standing in court…judge screamin’ “YOU LOSE”
…what would Jesus do?…if he hadn’t eaten for 30 days…up in rags filthy in every dirty way
…for his family…working all day without play
…being dragged behind a truck cause he was gay by the KKK
…when a drive-by shooter got him in his aim cause he wore the wrong color that day
…what would Jesus do?
…if he was caught up during 9/11 in one of the twin towers
…pointing a gun towards the man who rapped his wife…feel the power?
…layin’ in a 6ft deep hole…lifeless body…family throwin’ down flowers
…havin’ suicidal thoughts…slitting his wrist under runnin’ waters in the showers
…what would Jesus do?
…if his grandmother died and the only thing left for him to do was cry
…getting’ stomp half to death…on his hands in knees asking God “Why”
…when putted into a position where he’s backed in submission
…wishin’ he’ll jus die…knowin’ that life itself was all nothing but a lie
…what would Jesus do?
what would he do....
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…what would Jesus do?
…if he had a gun pointed to his head and asked if he wanted to live
…if drug dealing was the only occupation he knew and had nothing to give
…laying on the ground dying bleeding to death
…whom will he pray to forgive
…crying from the pain of his father beating his ribs…collapse within
…what would Jesus do?
…if he had sinned, would he go confess himself fully to a priest in a confession booth
…getting popped, stopped dead at his tracks…shakin’ his tooth loose
…getting’ bullied at school cause he aint cool…bleeding…people laughin’…being amused
…accused of a crime he didn’t commit, standing in court…judge screamin’ “YOU LOSE”
…what would Jesus do?…if he hadn’t eaten for 30 days…up in rags filthy in every dirty way
…for his family…working all day without play
…being dragged behind a truck cause he was gay by the KKK
…when a drive-by shooter got him in his aim cause he wore the wrong color that day
…what would Jesus do?
…if he was caught up during 9/11 in one of the twin towers
…pointing a gun towards the man who rapped his wife…feel the power?
…layin’ in a 6ft deep hole…lifeless body…family throwin’ down flowers
…havin’ suicidal thoughts…slitting his wrist under runnin’ waters in the showers
…what would Jesus do?
…if his grandmother died and the only thing left for him to do was cry
…getting’ stomp half to death…on his hands in knees asking God “Why”
…when putted into a position where he’s backed in submission
…wishin’ he’ll jus die…knowin’ that life itself was all nothing but a lie
…what would Jesus do?
what would he do....
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
A fool's poem
I think some guys can relate to this poem, it's about a guy fallin hard for a girl to only find out she don't feel the same right back. and at the end of it you jus look like a fool...but sometimes lookin like a fool is better then to never try at all, feel me...
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I am a fool...
...fell for her, scrapped my knees in the process, thought it was a sucess but it left me in much stress, In much stress? yes, but I must confess that I laid my heart on my sleeves...even beat a genius in a game of chess, but she wasn't impress, even pray to God to let her be mine and finished it off with a cross over my chest...
...it's like I'm wasting my breath, thought of her every time I took a rest...I'm so restless, thinking of what's next...Of what's next? yes...but in me, it's like she brings out my best and leaves me empty, as though my heart beat boxed while it rocks steady...yelling DID YOU EVER LIKED ME?! I'm fighting me...cause all of this could simply be a dream and my real life starts when I go to sleep...
What's her name? if i was to say, you would'nt even believe me, but believe me when I say she's worth to be, but is it worth to be...that damn crazy? that's why I'm starting to think twice, cause it's like she threw my heart in a bowl of ice, sliced it with a knife acouple of times---and for the right price she'll probably end my life
...wasn't anybody's wife?, nah so I asked Christ and he was like "alright", first time he ever answered me so clear in my life, thought it must've been a sign...now I'm just left in a sigh...ahem...okay, so I'm asking for another sign...COULD SHE EVER BE MINE? I don't know but maybe he just lied...I'm constantly asking why, asking questions with no answers, but for her I wanted an answer---but she simply said she aint sure
...damn...i am a fool
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I am a fool...
...fell for her, scrapped my knees in the process, thought it was a sucess but it left me in much stress, In much stress? yes, but I must confess that I laid my heart on my sleeves...even beat a genius in a game of chess, but she wasn't impress, even pray to God to let her be mine and finished it off with a cross over my chest...
...it's like I'm wasting my breath, thought of her every time I took a rest...I'm so restless, thinking of what's next...Of what's next? yes...but in me, it's like she brings out my best and leaves me empty, as though my heart beat boxed while it rocks steady...yelling DID YOU EVER LIKED ME?! I'm fighting me...cause all of this could simply be a dream and my real life starts when I go to sleep...
What's her name? if i was to say, you would'nt even believe me, but believe me when I say she's worth to be, but is it worth to be...that damn crazy? that's why I'm starting to think twice, cause it's like she threw my heart in a bowl of ice, sliced it with a knife acouple of times---and for the right price she'll probably end my life
...wasn't anybody's wife?, nah so I asked Christ and he was like "alright", first time he ever answered me so clear in my life, thought it must've been a sign...now I'm just left in a sigh...ahem...okay, so I'm asking for another sign...COULD SHE EVER BE MINE? I don't know but maybe he just lied...I'm constantly asking why, asking questions with no answers, but for her I wanted an answer---but she simply said she aint sure
...damn...i am a fool
To Mai
This poem isn't towards to any girl name Mai in particular (jus picked Mai cause it was a common name and it jus came to me) but to any girls who can relate to this. I wrote it for you...for them girls that dont think that there are any more good guys, that there is...there's hope, so wipe your tears and let the past be in the past. you got me...this poem that i wrote for you.
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Mai…
I hear you calling
See you there crying
I know the boys keep breaking your heart
It left you marks, just tore you apart
The other boys got you all wrong
That guy said “I love yous” so you gave him your body and soul
But he took your soul and gave your body away
Till this day you strayed away
Now longer trust men, but you just can’t keep away
Mai…
I’ve seen those tears
Here!...these are yours, broken pieces that I try to piece together
It no longer holds so I kept it in this letter with the others
Next to the May’s, Pa’s and single mothers
I hear you calling
Heard those boys still wanna dance with you
Chant to shake it a little longer
Making them fall in love with you
But they don’t love you, just love what you are
Mai…
You weren’t those stories being shared
But the more you heard them, the more you start living them
See…you had dreams and you had hope
But when it was lost…you were lost with it
The dreams that was dreamt was gone and I’ll mourn forever
Knowing that that you were here but gone forever…
I know these boys don’t treat you well
They call you names that are often found in hell
…so you walked away, say your goodbyes and farewells
But Mai…
I hear you calling
I saw those tears crying
I’ve written this song for you
Reach my hands out to you
What can I do…
Mai…
I know you’re lonely
And there are days when the pain wins
But know that me and the boys are trying…
…to win you over again
All over again…
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Mai…
I hear you calling
See you there crying
I know the boys keep breaking your heart
It left you marks, just tore you apart
The other boys got you all wrong
That guy said “I love yous” so you gave him your body and soul
But he took your soul and gave your body away
Till this day you strayed away
Now longer trust men, but you just can’t keep away
Mai…
I’ve seen those tears
Here!...these are yours, broken pieces that I try to piece together
It no longer holds so I kept it in this letter with the others
Next to the May’s, Pa’s and single mothers
I hear you calling
Heard those boys still wanna dance with you
Chant to shake it a little longer
Making them fall in love with you
But they don’t love you, just love what you are
Mai…
You weren’t those stories being shared
But the more you heard them, the more you start living them
See…you had dreams and you had hope
But when it was lost…you were lost with it
The dreams that was dreamt was gone and I’ll mourn forever
Knowing that that you were here but gone forever…
I know these boys don’t treat you well
They call you names that are often found in hell
…so you walked away, say your goodbyes and farewells
But Mai…
I hear you calling
I saw those tears crying
I’ve written this song for you
Reach my hands out to you
What can I do…
Mai…
I know you’re lonely
And there are days when the pain wins
But know that me and the boys are trying…
…to win you over again
All over again…
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
All in one (...and you wonder why I'm so angry)
This is a piece about some issues of the Hmong community that has been bugging me for awhile. The case about a kid "Fong Lee" being killed by a Minneapolis Police officier, a Hmong man being imprisoned for being in a car that killed 3 people "Koua Fong Lee" and last is the Hmong guy that was trying to sell his car and was killed by other Hmong men for wanting some parts off the car. It's these 3 news that gave me the anger and energy to produce this piece...I'm jus being as honest as possible, be offended or inspired. Im speaking my mind...
this is dedicated to the families and friends that are effected by these news
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My eyes are small
Ready to gleam through it all
My words are strong
Setting it off like a bomb
Got this fire they keep on feeding
Want me to bring the harm
Ask me why I'm so angry
And I'll be ready to tell it all!
They want me to stay calm
Blood boiling, it's peaking rage
My words an animal ready to escape
They're scare cause I'm shaking the cage!
Are you ready? I'm set to engage!!
In combat with the brigade, like a renegade I'm unleashing the pain, like a grenade I'm exploding with range!
Call us a gang...a set of thugs with our hands on our pen, our eyes to the sky with our mind on the prize
We've seen the demise of our own kind
Our soul, we've yet to find...and you ask me why I'm so angry at times
Cause we got cops killing kids and getting awards for that shit
We all know you're a murderer, please admit to that shit!
You planted that gun next to his soulless body you bitch!
Now you got mourners to mourn for that bike riding kid...who ran for his life cause he don't trust no cops!
Why should he, when one took his chance from ever making to the top...Look how the media portray this kid from the start, tryna justify for the killing from a cop
...And you wonder why I'm so angry
Keeping an innocent man behind bars like he's angry
Like he's a menace to society
Like if he gets out, he'll hop back in a Camry?!
See...all he wants to be is free and kiss his family
Would this of happen if his color was white and his name was Teddy?
I don't know...but he wasn't and his name is Koua Fong Lee!
So fuck the system for tryna keep a free man down...
Cause he's a Free man now...
...and you wonder why I'm so angry
Hmong killing Hmong is old story
That's an issue that has been carried...
But killing over car parts that's crazy
How could they take a father from his family?
Killed him for stupid shit that all you have to do is WORK hard for that money!
And now his wife is all lonely...
Cause they took him away and that's no story
...Damn
...and you wonder why I'm so angry
Cause we got too many news stories of our families
one too many bodies that didn't need to be buried
always fighting like a fury while our eyes gets teary
Mouth trembles as our hands grow weary
You're tired and you, I pledge to carry
...I'm angry
...So this fire they keep on feeding
this beast will keep on eating
As long I keep breathing
My lungs will never collapse
Until the reaper collects...
These words will forever connect
For you I swore to protect...
And my anger will stay on and never forget...
...and you wonder why I'm so angry
this is dedicated to the families and friends that are effected by these news
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My eyes are small
Ready to gleam through it all
My words are strong
Setting it off like a bomb
Got this fire they keep on feeding
Want me to bring the harm
Ask me why I'm so angry
And I'll be ready to tell it all!
They want me to stay calm
Blood boiling, it's peaking rage
My words an animal ready to escape
They're scare cause I'm shaking the cage!
Are you ready? I'm set to engage!!
In combat with the brigade, like a renegade I'm unleashing the pain, like a grenade I'm exploding with range!
Call us a gang...a set of thugs with our hands on our pen, our eyes to the sky with our mind on the prize
We've seen the demise of our own kind
Our soul, we've yet to find...and you ask me why I'm so angry at times
Cause we got cops killing kids and getting awards for that shit
We all know you're a murderer, please admit to that shit!
You planted that gun next to his soulless body you bitch!
Now you got mourners to mourn for that bike riding kid...who ran for his life cause he don't trust no cops!
Why should he, when one took his chance from ever making to the top...Look how the media portray this kid from the start, tryna justify for the killing from a cop
...And you wonder why I'm so angry
Keeping an innocent man behind bars like he's angry
Like he's a menace to society
Like if he gets out, he'll hop back in a Camry?!
See...all he wants to be is free and kiss his family
Would this of happen if his color was white and his name was Teddy?
I don't know...but he wasn't and his name is Koua Fong Lee!
So fuck the system for tryna keep a free man down...
Cause he's a Free man now...
...and you wonder why I'm so angry
Hmong killing Hmong is old story
That's an issue that has been carried...
But killing over car parts that's crazy
How could they take a father from his family?
Killed him for stupid shit that all you have to do is WORK hard for that money!
And now his wife is all lonely...
Cause they took him away and that's no story
...Damn
...and you wonder why I'm so angry
Cause we got too many news stories of our families
one too many bodies that didn't need to be buried
always fighting like a fury while our eyes gets teary
Mouth trembles as our hands grow weary
You're tired and you, I pledge to carry
...I'm angry
...So this fire they keep on feeding
this beast will keep on eating
As long I keep breathing
My lungs will never collapse
Until the reaper collects...
These words will forever connect
For you I swore to protect...
And my anger will stay on and never forget...
...and you wonder why I'm so angry
Monday, September 20, 2010
Where'd you go? (tribute to Qixing Lee)
I wrote this poem about 2 years after the passing of Qixing. It took me awhile to think of the right words to write. The night before I heard of Qixing's passing he sent me a message on MSN asking if I ever heard of the song Fort Minor - Where'd you go? and till this day I still regret not being up to respond to him. That's the reason why I added the hook of this song to this poem because it will forever be his song. So...hey Quick, i know it might not be the greatest poem from me but it's for sure the one that means the most, share it with your homies up there and I for sure do the same down here. Keep an eye on us homie...you know how I use to always get annoyed by you patting on my shoulder telling me "it's okay", you always knew something I didnt know back then that I just now know that "it's okay". Appreciate it man... i know it's been 4 years but it still seem like yesterday when were just drawing and talking about DBZ. One day man...we'll get to draw together again fam. R.I.P Quick....
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Where’d you go?
I miss you so…
Seems like it’s been forever…
…since you’ve been gone
Please come back home…
It’s been so long but I still can see your smile
Still can feel that pat on my shoulder telling me “it’s okay”
When times got hard, it’s almost like you’re still here saying it’s okay
Till this day I still can hear your songs being sang off key
Hitting them high notes just so I can tell you “no”
It was them days I remembered you
Since you’ve been gone, things has changed
Since you’ve been gone, things has changed
Xee has a beautiful baby boy, even gave him your name
Jackie…well, she’s Jackie but now with a degree
Kristin…well she’s still the same, but with that paper and making that green
I know Diana is married now and expecting, that I’m sure
Pakou is Pakou…still on that grind and living life to the fullest
And for them fellas, I’m not sure, but I’m sure that they have you in their mind
Well, as for me…things has changed
Where’d you go?
I miss you so…
Remembering that day when I got that phone call…
I paused for a minute and thought of this song
Remembered that night when you left a message on my screen…
Asking did I know this song…
I regret not seeing it ‘cause I was asleep, this quickly became your song
And I felt something wrong…then you were gone
Seems like it’s been forever……since you’ve been gone
Been a couple of years, but it feels as though it was yesterday
Seems like it’s been forever……since you’ve been gone
Been a couple of years, but it feels as though it was yesterday
I was outside and you came along just to say hi
Didn’t know why you thought of me as a friend
But I’m glad you did, cause I always had respect for you now and then
Remembered when you only had a couple months left
You asked when you bought a whipp if I could help you fix it
I said sure…but you gotta come home
…you never did
Monday, September 13, 2010
"I miss her" summer tribute
I wrote this poem about 2 years ago about my love for Summer. Since summer is pretty much over and fall is here, I thought I would share this poem to everyone.
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I miss her...
I remember back in the day, when I was younger, she would treat me so good
it was like forever how she make me feel...forever...
I use to tell all my friends she was coming...and when she came
She would greet everyone with a Hi and a wave...
It was them days we would run together
say we will be here forever as long we have each other
we were so inseparable...but every year she would come and go
Some years it was earlier and some it was later
but when she came...I smile
and everyone knew she was here by the way I walked
I couldn't get her out of my mind
...cause I just remembered all them times at night...she would sing to me
show me her beauty as I gaze into her while we took them drives at night
...just so I could be with her a little longer
It was them stories that I held true...
Cause me and you...
I fell in love with you
Remembered that time we were together...it was hot and dry
I looked above and u made the whole world cry...
I couldn't believe my eyes...but I fell in love with you in that moment of time and in this moment of time...I hold you high
but every year I knew you were gone by the chill that crept down my spine cause days grew darker
...light grew shorter
...it got colder and I knew that my time with you was up...
but until next year...we will meet again
...and when we do, we'll be together...forever...
...Summer
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I miss her...
I remember back in the day, when I was younger, she would treat me so good
it was like forever how she make me feel...forever...
I use to tell all my friends she was coming...and when she came
She would greet everyone with a Hi and a wave...
It was them days we would run together
say we will be here forever as long we have each other
we were so inseparable...but every year she would come and go
Some years it was earlier and some it was later
but when she came...I smile
and everyone knew she was here by the way I walked
I couldn't get her out of my mind
...cause I just remembered all them times at night...she would sing to me
show me her beauty as I gaze into her while we took them drives at night
...just so I could be with her a little longer
It was them stories that I held true...
Cause me and you...
I fell in love with you
Remembered that time we were together...it was hot and dry
I looked above and u made the whole world cry...
I couldn't believe my eyes...but I fell in love with you in that moment of time and in this moment of time...I hold you high
but every year I knew you were gone by the chill that crept down my spine cause days grew darker
...light grew shorter
...it got colder and I knew that my time with you was up...
but until next year...we will meet again
...and when we do, we'll be together...forever...
...Summer
Monday, August 23, 2010
Friends
this is a poem i wrote to them friends who i called friends, thought we were more like family as in my darkest hours the friends showed their true colors and i had to realize that keeping them around wasn't worth it...so long to them friends
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Ahem...
We were friends
What the fuck happen to us?
Enemies stay enemies but friends......they change!
See...I left my friends when they left me
When it came to an end I had to realize what was worth
Had to put the bullshit aside to make room for the real shit
"Friends come and go but family is forever"
They took it out of context, forgot I always saw them as family
But now I've been gone for so long
It no longer matter to what we were
Only that they weren't there when it mattered
Saw my worth so your words didn't matter
Tried to apologize but it's too late...
Had to say my goodbyes and fuck you's
Walked away with my mouth shut had nothing to say
Cause what's there to say?
Nothing! Nothing! You aint saying NOTHING!
Claiming I was just talkin shit
Shit...you must be crazy
Try layin in ICU with needles down your neck expectin your "friends" to come through...
Who? You? Nah...you weren't there
During my darkest times my family stood there...
Not you...so who I thought that had my back weren't there
so what's here? Jus me and my family
And nowhere ya' were found
Not mad, jus their true colors bled through and saw them for who they are
I'm way above them like a star
Never lookin back I've gone too far
They think it's over cars, nah...it's way beyond that
Yeah...that lit the fuse, but it fuse into something we can't refuse
At the end we all lose, but I've taken most of the abuse...
Not amuse, no more fighting with you...
So I had to walk away towards my own views...
But we were friendsWhat the fuck happen to us?
Shit...
...
....
...
Life happened...
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Ahem...
We were friends
What the fuck happen to us?
Enemies stay enemies but friends......they change!
See...I left my friends when they left me
When it came to an end I had to realize what was worth
Had to put the bullshit aside to make room for the real shit
"Friends come and go but family is forever"
They took it out of context, forgot I always saw them as family
But now I've been gone for so long
It no longer matter to what we were
Only that they weren't there when it mattered
Saw my worth so your words didn't matter
Tried to apologize but it's too late...
Had to say my goodbyes and fuck you's
Walked away with my mouth shut had nothing to say
Cause what's there to say?
Nothing! Nothing! You aint saying NOTHING!
Claiming I was just talkin shit
Shit...you must be crazy
Try layin in ICU with needles down your neck expectin your "friends" to come through...
Who? You? Nah...you weren't there
During my darkest times my family stood there...
Not you...so who I thought that had my back weren't there
so what's here? Jus me and my family
And nowhere ya' were found
Not mad, jus their true colors bled through and saw them for who they are
I'm way above them like a star
Never lookin back I've gone too far
They think it's over cars, nah...it's way beyond that
Yeah...that lit the fuse, but it fuse into something we can't refuse
At the end we all lose, but I've taken most of the abuse...
Not amuse, no more fighting with you...
So I had to walk away towards my own views...
But we were friendsWhat the fuck happen to us?
Shit...
...
....
...
Life happened...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Redefining Hmong men in society
This is me performing at the "Redefining Hmong men in society" event in St. Paul, MN earlier this year. It was my first time performing and a great experience. That night had a great amount of other spoken word/rappers/poets artist giving a little word to everyone in the room. That night I read "Drink-up" (a poem I wrote about people that are addicted to the night life/clubs every), "I miss her..." (a love poem to my favorite season SUMMER) and "OURSELVES" (a poem of my reflection on the current state of the Hmong community). I will post some of these older poems as the weeks progress. I would just like to share this picture as a token of my growth through this world of spoken word. I have always been writing as a kid, but never took it serious until I was encouraged by friends to try it out. I am always up for an performance and willing to listen to others as well because I love to see how other spoken words/poets artist do it so I can learn 
from them.So I wanna say Thanks again to TouSaiko Lee for giving me an invite and to future invites.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
My Message
this is a spoken word piece that is to the younger hmong generation, but can really be towards anyone hmong or not. I read this particualr piece at the culture shows at St. Cloud State of Minnesota and University of Minesota: Duluth. Thanks for the invites and here's the poem "my message"
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To my young Hmong women…
You are much more then your hips and thighs
Speak truth through your lips and eyes
Shake pass the pain and lies
Open your heart and realize, when we men bring you down
That only you can stand up and never back down
I’m telling you this from the other side
Cause you are my mother, sisters, aunts, and nieces
Don’t let those short skirts and skin be your voice
God gave you a tongue so preach until you’re heard
Sing your song, because only you can deliver the melody
Hum your harmony, no matter what your dreams are, let them be forever
Don’t let one man make you leave us
Those stories you hear…are stories, there are still good in some of us
You are Queens; don’t let any fool be your King
When time gets hard don’t forget those who were with you from the start
And those who broke your heart, don’t let them be your light
When it feels like only darkness, know that even the smallest light still shines bright
Many times I have heard your stories
From broken dreams alongside the typical theme
I try to understand the heartache that passes through the soul
But only could hear your words…so here I write to your soul
To my young Hmong women
You are so much more…
Don’t let any man tell you you’re not beautiful
You are the stars that shine through the darken skies
There will be times when others leave you dry
Don’t cry, always believe you can fly
Because whatever they say, it’s your judgment that will lead the way
You are the carrier of our culture, the mother of our seeds
When we men fell, you were the ones who picked us back up
Your strength is powerful beyond measure
Let marriage be for later, for you have not yet explore the world
These are the times when younger yous need you the most
You were meant to play with the boys; they just never expect you to fly
What our parents said was the past and your present is your presence
To my young Hmong men
We are much more then our guns and knives
Be ourselves and never wear a disguise…
For these are times when we are needed most
Through our words of song we must play
Understand that we are not the same, but so alike in many ways
We must protect those who we love
When war broke out, our fathers stood tall and led the way
As in these days we must do the same
For our war is different, yet so very much the same
We were children, but as men we must put those childish things away
Our words can be so much more then profanity
When we speak, we should always leave it full, never empty
In these days we must stay strong
And for those who have done wrong, doesn’t represent us all
To my young Hmong men
We are much more then gangs and thugs
Always so quick to pull out guns without ever saying a word
…and you wonder why our voices go unheard
Why do we carry this hatred towards our own brothers?
I’ve heard too many stories of bodies sleeping on streets
Where we don’t even go to heaven because our brothers’ soul is with the reaper’s keep
Understand we aren’t strong and admit that we are weak
So when we carry on, we’re all in his heart for him to keep…
But that’s exactly why we’re strong; don’t be afraid to admit your faults
Against the ropes we stand, among all others we’re not the same
Kick up the dust; don’t be afraid to let things hit the fan
We’re together in this like a song without the band
To my Hmong…
We are the change that we seek
It’s not that our goals are too high and we will never meet
But that our goals are too low and it’s already been met
Our fathers told us not to daydream, shook our head, but only pain came
There are brothers and sisters that still reside in those refuge camps so far away
After so long…half way cross the world, we still seek refuge
Sometimes you have to get off the boat to walk on water
So as we look into the sky for brighter days
Know that each rainy day…rainbows are not too far away
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To my young Hmong women…
You are much more then your hips and thighs
Speak truth through your lips and eyes
Shake pass the pain and lies
Open your heart and realize, when we men bring you down
That only you can stand up and never back down
I’m telling you this from the other side
Cause you are my mother, sisters, aunts, and nieces
Don’t let those short skirts and skin be your voice
God gave you a tongue so preach until you’re heard
Sing your song, because only you can deliver the melody
Hum your harmony, no matter what your dreams are, let them be forever
Don’t let one man make you leave us
Those stories you hear…are stories, there are still good in some of us
You are Queens; don’t let any fool be your King
When time gets hard don’t forget those who were with you from the start
And those who broke your heart, don’t let them be your light
When it feels like only darkness, know that even the smallest light still shines bright
Many times I have heard your stories
From broken dreams alongside the typical theme
I try to understand the heartache that passes through the soul
But only could hear your words…so here I write to your soul
To my young Hmong women
You are so much more…
Don’t let any man tell you you’re not beautiful
You are the stars that shine through the darken skies
There will be times when others leave you dry
Don’t cry, always believe you can fly
Because whatever they say, it’s your judgment that will lead the way
You are the carrier of our culture, the mother of our seeds
When we men fell, you were the ones who picked us back up
Your strength is powerful beyond measure
Let marriage be for later, for you have not yet explore the world
These are the times when younger yous need you the most
You were meant to play with the boys; they just never expect you to fly
What our parents said was the past and your present is your presence
To my young Hmong men
We are much more then our guns and knives
Be ourselves and never wear a disguise…
For these are times when we are needed most
Through our words of song we must play
Understand that we are not the same, but so alike in many ways
We must protect those who we love
When war broke out, our fathers stood tall and led the way
As in these days we must do the same
For our war is different, yet so very much the same
We were children, but as men we must put those childish things away
Our words can be so much more then profanity
When we speak, we should always leave it full, never empty
In these days we must stay strong
And for those who have done wrong, doesn’t represent us all
To my young Hmong men
We are much more then gangs and thugs
Always so quick to pull out guns without ever saying a word
…and you wonder why our voices go unheard
Why do we carry this hatred towards our own brothers?
I’ve heard too many stories of bodies sleeping on streets
Where we don’t even go to heaven because our brothers’ soul is with the reaper’s keep
Understand we aren’t strong and admit that we are weak
So when we carry on, we’re all in his heart for him to keep…
But that’s exactly why we’re strong; don’t be afraid to admit your faults
Against the ropes we stand, among all others we’re not the same
Kick up the dust; don’t be afraid to let things hit the fan
We’re together in this like a song without the band
To my Hmong…
We are the change that we seek
It’s not that our goals are too high and we will never meet
But that our goals are too low and it’s already been met
Our fathers told us not to daydream, shook our head, but only pain came
There are brothers and sisters that still reside in those refuge camps so far away
After so long…half way cross the world, we still seek refuge
Sometimes you have to get off the boat to walk on water
So as we look into the sky for brighter days
Know that each rainy day…rainbows are not too far away
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Behind the keys: Me and You
well, to start off to disect into my own poem im jus going to quote some parts and go into it from there:
"to be inspired is to let God breathe through you"
from my understanding the word "inspired" means God breathe and it was to describe what happens to those who wrote the bible, that it wasn't them writing what was happening but that it was God who was talking through them and they were writing it down. and that goes into my next quote
"so when I write it's like he took over and written this script for you"
there's something that happens while I write that I dont know how to exactly explain, but i think this line alone pretty much explains it.
"these words that I write is the infection of truth"
i dont even know how i came up with this, it jus came out but i think it's pretty dope haha...
"Effect a youth, cause they are our future and I am the proof"
We grow up saying that we are the future and now it should be our turn to say that to our youth cause as we are making things happens and after us is our youth (to my nieces and nephews)
"assume the worst, the best will be at cost"
well, i believe that we can always get the worst easy like at a "discount" for an example but when it comes to the best we have to work hard for it (at full price) which where's "at cost" comes from
"in these words there must be trust, if not then we are lost"
gotta believe in something, if not then what's there to believe in...that's pretty much what im tryin to say here, there's those people who go around who dont believe in God or whatever religions you may believe but for those who jus refuse to believe in anything, what happened? shit you're lost...
"As children we flew but as we grew our wings were clipped, grounded...we laid as though the moon was only a dream, the stars seem to shine but somewhere in line we lost our way"
when we were kids, we saw the world as a big playground and a place where there was no end but as we got older we forgot that. Im jus trying to make people see that even if they do or dont.
"wish that friend was still here to say "it's okay", shit...it's okay, yeah...thank you Quick I remembered what you said"
I had a friend by the name of Qixing Lee that past away a couple of years ago and during high school he would always pat me on the shoulders saying "it's okay" and i always thought it was annoying and never knew why he did that, but when he pass i always thought about that he knew something back then that only now i realized that "it's okay".
"To hell and back we know that road but to heaven we've lost that track, it's like our hearts is no longer intact"
ive always heard the phrase "ive been to hell and back" but i never heard anyone saying ive been to heaven and back or anything in that sense because well...geting to heaven is a road that often talked but not taken. so that's why i said we have lost that track and it seems we have no hearts because of that.
"with these days they're gone by fast, look at our past...no ones left"
think about it...how many people from your past is really still in your life, not that many and in my case besides family, nobody
and the last line im gon quote "be like the stars in darkness and shine..."
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Me and You
To be inspire is to let God breathe through you, so when I write it's like he took over and written this script for you, what my poetry speaks might not be his exact words but through me I keep it true, through the darkness through the light, from the wrong to the right, understand me is like understanding him, like a mirror I am a reflection of you, these words that I write is the infection of truth...
Effect a youth, cause they are our future and I am the proof, we are a family and He is the roof, these walls are our home and you are the roots, see...these words means so much then what is thought, when these dreams are caught, plunger towards a young soul's heart it will be bought, consider these words in your next thought, assume the worst, the best will be at cost...
In this war we have fought, some have won and many have lost, we were soldiers of life...children of God...men and women alike, in this fight that ignited our might, when days grew dark He gave us light, in the beginning it was Him and then came us, in these words there must be trust, if not then we are lost...
As children we flew but as we grew our wings were clipped, grounded...we laid as though the moon was only a dream, the stars seem to shine but somewhere in line we lost our way, lost our days, wish that friend was still here to say "it's okay", shit...it's okay, yeah...thank you Quick I remembered what you said...
To hell and back we know that road but to heaven we've lost that track, it's like our hearts is no longer intact, our back hurts from life's attack, more beaten then today's Iraq, look at these eyes as they fade to black, shades of grey a hint of black, with these days they're gone by fast, look at our past...no one's left
Shattered dreams possess our mind, suppress our crimes, impress my rhymes, these lines I speak at times are yours without the lies, in me...I caress your life, undress your eyes, see me with your heart and not your mind, these words aren't mine, but His...be like the stars in darkness and shine!...
...and shine
...and shine
...and shine
Be like the stars in darkness and shine...
Effect a youth, cause they are our future and I am the proof, we are a family and He is the roof, these walls are our home and you are the roots, see...these words means so much then what is thought, when these dreams are caught, plunger towards a young soul's heart it will be bought, consider these words in your next thought, assume the worst, the best will be at cost...
In this war we have fought, some have won and many have lost, we were soldiers of life...children of God...men and women alike, in this fight that ignited our might, when days grew dark He gave us light, in the beginning it was Him and then came us, in these words there must be trust, if not then we are lost...
As children we flew but as we grew our wings were clipped, grounded...we laid as though the moon was only a dream, the stars seem to shine but somewhere in line we lost our way, lost our days, wish that friend was still here to say "it's okay", shit...it's okay, yeah...thank you Quick I remembered what you said...
To hell and back we know that road but to heaven we've lost that track, it's like our hearts is no longer intact, our back hurts from life's attack, more beaten then today's Iraq, look at these eyes as they fade to black, shades of grey a hint of black, with these days they're gone by fast, look at our past...no one's left
Shattered dreams possess our mind, suppress our crimes, impress my rhymes, these lines I speak at times are yours without the lies, in me...I caress your life, undress your eyes, see me with your heart and not your mind, these words aren't mine, but His...be like the stars in darkness and shine!...
...and shine
...and shine
...and shine
Be like the stars in darkness and shine...
Monday, July 26, 2010
Beginning of the End
Well, I made this Blogspot to share my poems to the world. I started posting my 
poems on a Hip-Hop forum "Holla-Front.com" and as to many online poets I am known as the S/N "geno". I wrote and posted many of my poems on that forum throughout the years and gotten great responses from other poets/writers. I have met some great writers that have inspired me to keep doing what I'm doing and have helped me elevate my writing. So first and foremost I would like to say thank you to the writers/poets of H-F that have given me the response throughout the years. To the friends who has shown me love and took the time to read some of my poems I would like to say thank you at this time. I will try to leave this Blogspot only for posting poems and going in depth of what I mean into each piece.
Thank you for time and be sure to check weekly or daily (not sure how often I am going to update) for updates and new/old poems.
poems on a Hip-Hop forum "Holla-Front.com" and as to many online poets I am known as the S/N "geno". I wrote and posted many of my poems on that forum throughout the years and gotten great responses from other poets/writers. I have met some great writers that have inspired me to keep doing what I'm doing and have helped me elevate my writing. So first and foremost I would like to say thank you to the writers/poets of H-F that have given me the response throughout the years. To the friends who has shown me love and took the time to read some of my poems I would like to say thank you at this time. I will try to leave this Blogspot only for posting poems and going in depth of what I mean into each piece.Thank you for time and be sure to check weekly or daily (not sure how often I am going to update) for updates and new/old poems.
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